Am I the biggest mountain that faith needs to move?

I have just been noticing that I can have big dreams but getting them from dreams to fruition can be a daunting task. I only need a mustard seed-sized faith to move any obstacle - Jesus said so. So what stops me? I have faith in other people but not always in myself. This is where the work begins. Stop having a perfectionist mindset. Everyone starts somewhere so I might as well start now. Ok, so I may fail a zillion times but this doesn’t make ME a failure it makes me a learner. I can learn from my mistakes as long as I don’t doubt myself, or doubt my existence - I am here for a reason.

All of the things that I have gone through always taught me something. Sometimes it taught me what I wanted. Sometimes it taught me what I didn’t want. Both lessons are valuable. Sometimes I learned how to never give up on things. Sometimes I learned how to give up graciously and with my dignity still intact. Sometimes I decided that I wasn’t going to take being mistreated anymore and left the situation. Sometimes I learned how to stay and stand up for what I believed in. Sometimes I laughed. Sometimes I cried. Sometimes I even wanted to end it all but mercifully my God told me that I am tougher than that as long as I have Him on my side.

So it won’t be easy. But, it may not be hard. All I can do is try. Then try again. And then try again. If I keep my faith sooner or later that mountain will move. Even if the mountain is me.