Having God with you is enough

I thought that I would share one of my favorite scriptures in the Bible. It is a testimony. Years and years ago, when my children were still small, I remember what my days were like - always rushing. My oldest suffered from night terrors and would wake up screaming three times a night easily. I could never wake him or help him in his distress. Then in the morning, he would be sleeping like a stone. I couldn't wake him up. It would take forever! I had to get my kids ready and fed in the morning, get myself ready, drop them off at school, and then catch the subway to go downtown to work ( I live in New York City - The Bronx).

My husband worked nights so he wasn't home yet to help with the kids in the mornings. One day, I got on the train after one of these harrowing mornings and I was exhausted. I was so tired, frustrated, and downright sad, so tired that I was shaking. I was working so hard and I had not even two dollars in my pocket - I only had the travel money on my MetroCard for my two trips - going and coming.

I was on the train and tears were streaming down my cheeks uncontrollably. I couldn't stop them - the silent tears of women that I think we all understand. And I prayed and asked God to help me. I didn't know what to do. I was working so hard and had nothing to show for it. I was stressed. I was fairly new to reading the Bible back then so I didn't even know what was in it that was when God whispered to me to read Habakkuk 3:16-19 (NIV).

“I heard and my heart pounded, my lips quivered at the sound; decay crept into my bones, and my legs trembled. Yet I will wait patiently for the day of calamity to come on the nation invading us. 17 Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, 18 yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior. 19 The Sovereign Lord is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, he enables me to tread on the heights.”

My tears turned to tears of Joy because I knew God was with me and he heard me, he was listening to me and I was not alone. On those stressful days remember you are not alone God hears you, he is watching you, he knows you, and he loves you. Stress is real but so is my God.

So what if my fig tree wasn't ripening, so what if my crops were failing? I had God and that was enough! Have a blessed day!